Traits: Shy, Sweet, Gentle, Tortured, Complex, Fearful, Needs Control
Rose lives in the emotional prison of her dark and painful past. She wants to believe that she’s deserving of love, but horrific nightmares and the haunting voice of her tormentor tell her otherwise. Through Colin’s music and his gentle ways, she gradually finds hope for a normal future.
As I listen to the song, it reaches down deep inside me, bringing me to the understanding that I've only been living half a life. I thought I was trying to write the next chapter by going to college, but in reality I've only been going through the motions. I'm too afraid to step out and see what's really out there for me. I thought I was safe here inside my cocoon, but am I? I get the distinct feeling that I'm in danger of dying in here, without ever breaking free.
I can't rewrite my past, and without that, I don't think there's any hope of me writing a happy future. He ruined me and there's no going back. I'm like Humpty Dumpty. No one can put me back together.
I think I might have been happy once, but I've long-since forgotten how it feels. And the last several years of my life aren't something easily shaken off.
Laying my head against his chest, I let him hold me for a while. I find warmth and comfort in his strong arms being wrapped around me and the tender caresses of his hands. I’ve never felt this close to anyone except Olivia, but it’s still different. She’s my friend, while what I feel for Colin goes much deeper. It’s an odd feeling, like I’ve finally come home from a long journey. It’s as if Colin is a missing piece of myself I’ve been searching for all my life.
“Without you, I wouldn't have found my inner butterfly. You saw through my hard brown shell when nobody but Liv and her mom ever had before. I love you, Colin.”
He’s everything I’ve always wanted and everything I never knew I needed.
“I think butterflies are my spirit animal.”
Supporting himself on his forearms and gazing into my eyes, he enters me with slow deliberation. Inch by inch, he fills me up, until he’s fully seated inside me. I marvel at how there’s absolutely no discomfort, only a delicious sense of fullness, rightness, and beauty. We fit together like we were made for one another. He’s the half of me I didn’t know was missing.
Quote about Colin
Colin is also the nicest guy I've ever met. I didn't know men like him existed. Without even trying, he stirs that teenage idealist in me, who longs for a happily-ever-after. I know it can never be, which is why I should have refused. Being near his sexy sweetness is going to be torture. Apparently I'm a masochist, because I'm more than willing to endure it to see him one more time.
Models: Jax Turyna & Josh